Dogs and Horoscopes?

So my boyfriend and I were driving around the other day and we just out of no where deciced to get another dog. We had 2 at one point but they were puppies and just way out of our league at the time because we were never home and we really didn't have the patience in order to train them. So we gave one to one of his friends and one to my brother. But now, we have one older one. His name is snow and he was his mothers dog but she had to give him to her brother and he just kept him outside and it was really sad so we took him. Either way though, he is HUGE...he is a pitbull so of course he is huge but when I say huge, I mean his head is like the size of 2 of my heads. But anyway, when we found a couple of palces and were driving, I was looking at the horoscopes cause I'm a horoscope phynatic and my boyfriends said that he should start a project with his spouse cause it would make things a little better and it would be fun so that proved to him that the horoscopes are real. He always asked me why I read them cause they weren't even true. I agree with him partially but half the time, you can relate to it somehow cause it goes with your personality not just you. I love them though.
Now this dog thing, we are planning on getting another one but we just haven't found one. There's a syberian husky for 100$ but that's a little out of our price range. Who knows... I'll keep in touch!!

End of Highschool

So there are like 11 more days of school left, if I do Senior skip day which I probably will but we will see. I am so excited for the fact that I have been through hell this last trimester and still am but I am going to get by. Plus prom is on Saturday, I am going by myself but will probably hook up with a friend there or something since my boyfriend is stupid and doesn't wanna go. My dress is very very pretty. I was excited about it cause it was ONLY 40 dollars and my boyfriend loved it. I had to pick it out myself cause he was at work and my friend didn't answer her phone but I am content with it.

Anyway... I am super excited for Prom and Graduation just for the fact that I am FINALLY walking the stage and having all of my family whistle and blow just as I did for my friends and such. I am going to probably have a lot of people there for the fact that there has been a lot of people here for me throughout my Senior year to get me going and such. I am going to be sad to leave though. When I wake up in the morning it is going to be weird not having to go to school anymore and when I drive by Kennedy to go to my parents house, I am going to remember all the memories Kennedy left me, or I left Kennedy.

Either way, I, Carli Wagner, am graduating from Kennedy Highschool on May 28th, 2009. 11 days away everybody!!!!

MoThErS

So....as I've noticed there are plently of younger girls getting pregnant these days. There aren't as many pregnant ones this year as there has been in the past years are Kennedy Highschool but still. I've always been the type that wants to wait until I find the right person and I'm sure these girls have said the same thing but broke their self promise.
Either way, having a baby is a beautiful thing. After all of the pain and suffering throughout the pregnancy and till the end of it, it all is worth it once you see that beautiful baby. A mother and their child are said to have the most connection in a relationship then anyone else. I could see it cause they were connected to her body you know. Eating what she's already eaten, drank. Making her pee and throw up and such.
I am personally very connected to my mother. Most girls are more connected to their mother than their father anyway but me and my mother are like twins. We look a like, talk a like, act a like. Everything. I feel bad for everything I've ever done to her to hurt her feelings cause me and my 3 older brother have put her through a lot and I feeld bad for it when ever I think about it.
The reason I am writing about this is because last Sunday was Mother's Day and I would like to make a shout out to all of those mothers out there.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMS!!!

Good Greif, BAD Greif

I don't know exactly how to act towards someone that has just lost a family member. I know you can say that your sorry and God bless the family but what else can you do?

My boyfriend's aunt was just murdered last Wednesday. They found her body in a motel but didn't know how it happened. I was horrified. I was scared. I was sorry for him. I met her once when she came to Cedar Rapids from Chicago. I gave her a ride from the bus station and back. I was basically the last person she had seen before leaving back to Chicago in January.

So we went up there as soon as possible. We left around 2 in the afternoon last Thursday. He wanted to be with his family and for some odd reason, so did I. We went, the next morning we saw her body and found out she was shot in the head 2 times and 3 times in the body. Her 2 sons were there to view it for the first time too and just seeing them stand there and give their last good bye's to their mother in that way, left me teary eyed. I couldn't let my boyfriend see me cry but my eyes were very moist I'll tell you that.

I could tell my boyfriend was sad, he just wasn't showing it. All I could do was comfort him at night and be by his side throughout the day. And that's exactly what I did.

Now we have to go back this weekend for the funeral on Monday. I don't know what's going to happen but I will still be there to help with the family's grievances.

***R.I.P Regina Warren***

Physical Abuse Poem

So when I was writing the post about abusive relationships, it gave me another idea for another class. I am in 6th hour creative writing and we are working on poems. We were told to make a unit piece for Iambic meter and my poem was based upon an abusive relationship. Here it goes.

I stare at the ceiling from my cozy bed,

Trying to get these thoughts out of my head.

Running fast then slow like a broken movie tape,

Tell me why I feel I need to escape.

Out of this world I need to be led.

I pull the blankets up over my swollen face.

How could I let this happen, I'm such a disgrace.

We were perfectly fine, joking around like a normal couple.

Then all of a sudden my vision began to double.

The blood in my mouth I could taste.

I push you away but you still swing those hands.

I start to bed as I lose count of the lands.

Next thing I know I'm laying on the cold floor.

Someone stands over me saying "that's enough man, no more".

How grateful I am of that persons demands.

I pull the blankets down and wipe away the tears.

This is what I get after all of the years?

You know, it's okay though, I'll be fine by myself.

I can't think of you but rather my own health.

So goodbye love and my worst fears.

This isn't a true situation, it just came to mind as I began to write. A lot of people told me it was really good but what do you think? Does it run smoothly? Go with the abusive relationship well?

Wondering

Have you ever just sat ther and wondered what someone was doing at the moment? Whether it be your loved one, your mother, father, brother, sister or even you dog. Just sit there and wonder. You asked them what they were going to do that day and you concented to it but you still wonder if that is what they are doing.
I personally do it all the time with my boyfriend. We share a phone so I can only call him before my lunch in order to see where I should go to see him. I always wonder about him though. Cause really, he could tell me one thing and go do something else and I would never know. He could go from 8 till 11 with some other girl and I would never know. That's what trust is for though. Maybe I don't trust him. He's put me in situations that cause me to wonder though. I hate it.
Do you have a situation like this? Even with your dog?

Family

So this last weekend was Easter...I hope everyone had a good one. I personally got to enjoy 2 hours of the day and then I had to go to work and deal with some drama for most of the day. Anyway, I was just thinking. You know how if there is part of the family that you just don't get along with because of things they've done or said. Or it's just a family from a marriage, and there's just that void between them and the rest of the family.
I don't know if anyone else has the same problem but I have another side of the family from a marriage and my brothers and I don't like the marriage part of it anyway but the family is just not us. They get invited to the dinner for the sake that they invite us but they don't visit, they don't eat, anything with us. They may say hello but after that, it's a void and they go and sit with the family they see everyday.
I can't blame them though cause I really do the same thing. I just don't feel like conversating with people that I really don't know and their really not even my family.
Anybody else?