Friends will be friends but not always till the end...

I have had many friends through out my 17 almost 18 years of life. I don't know why it took till my 18th year to realize what friends are truly friends. I shouldn't be talking though, some of my old friends are probably saying the same thing about me. How do you know if your friend is truly your friend? Maybe you just have to go through the situation to realize whether they are or not. I know from the beginning, how they act toward me and how much effort they put into the relationship.

There are friends that put everything into it, like me with my big hearted self, and then there are friends that put some effort into it, the ones that say they care but don't show it. There are friends that are just users, whether for a ride or for sex, then there are friends that are friends from the past that you have just lost touch with.

One of my friends birthdays is today and we were going to hangout last night but she had to work until 9 pm and by the time she got off, she wanted to go home and take a shower and then come hangout for a little bit but it was 9 pm and I had to be up for school. I told her to just come over before she went home, it wouldn't take long and then she could go do her other business, well that wasn't good enough, she felt disgusting and needed to shower. She said she had something else to go do real quick and then she would call me and that it would be a minute and then she would call me. I just didn't expect her to come. You know how people get this tone in their voice when you ask them to do something and you can just tell they don't want to and then right as you expect it they come up with an excuse? That's how it was so I just fell asleep with my boyfriend and puppies. I'm use to this by now, with my cousin doing the same thing a week before, I've learned to just ignore it but when they need me next, I won't be there just as they did me.

I do the same thing to people though, I'm a hypocrite, I admit it. Except it's not my fault. I hate telling people no so I tell them yes and then just ignore them the rest of the day like I totally forgot. It's an excuse for me though, I have a huge heart and people know that so they kind of take advantage of it but when I do tell them no, I'm the worst person in the world. I hate to even think of telling people no due to the fact that they will hate me. I'm starting to get the notion in me not to care though cause most of my friends don't do anything for me.

Does anyone else have the same feelings? Any friends that just don't care they just want to use you? Please enlighten me on your stories and the feelings you have towards them, if you need some advice let me know too, like I said I have a big heart, I'm here for those who need to chat. Ta Ta for now ladies and gents!!!

My heart is laying on the floor...

Just a thought to ponder on...What do you do when your heart is laying on the floor and there's no one there to help you pick it up?

If you can answer these questions, were floating in the same boat...

• Why do people give up EVERYTHING for a person when that person doesn't want to do the same?
• Why is it that qirls seem to run back to a man even when he does something wrong?
• Why can men not see love?
• Why do men think it's okay for them to do something but it's so wrong if the woman does it?
• WHY DOES LOVE HURT SO MUCH?

I don't understand why girls put up with so much with their men and the men don't see that they are hurting inside by thier actions. If only they could see how we really feel ladies, maybe your not putting up with the same BS that I am and if your not, give yourself a pat on the back cause I just keep putting myself through hell. This needs to stop, my heart will no longer lay on the floor waiting for this someone to pick it up...I'm selling the empty space in my chest for 20 dollars a month...any takers?

OH NO...I think I got somethin....

Not me literally...I'm talking in general. Have you ever thought about maybe you have an STD?, asking yourself do I have itching? Discharge? Bumps? I'm sure it goes through everyone's mind as they become sexually active. What do you do though when your partner thinks they have an STD, do you automatically think they cheated on you or hope to god it's just a bacteria infection from the new laundry soap? I'd take it step by step and stay with the partner until things are worked out, offer to go get checked also to make sure it wasn't you that gave it to them. Time would go faster like that in this situation.
I know you all are getting tired of the same talk every year from the school nurse and others and I'm sure you don't want to hear it from me but sometimes I think it's better to hear it from a peer than an adult who doesn't have any idea what is going through our minds in this generation.

The start of STD's (from http://www.epigee.org/)

• Sexually transmitted diseases (also called STDs) are infections that can be transferred from one person to another through sexual contact.
• According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, there are over 15 million cases of sexually transmitted disease cases reported annually in the United States.
• Other than HIV, the most common STDs in the United States are chlamydia, gonorrhea, syphilis, genital herpes, human papillomavirus, hepatitis B, trichomoniasis, and bacterial vaginosis.
• Adolescents and young adults are the age groups at the greatest risk for acquiring an STD.

From what I have heard, women are more prone to pass it on to men then men to women. Both men and women can have an STD for a period of time before ever getting symptoms, sometimes you don't even get symptoms at all. The best way to prevent getting an STD is to wear protection, obviously. There are many kinds of condoms out there you know, even ones for females so they get the excitement too. If you ever get into a situation where you don't have one or your partner doesn't want to use one, I'd say leave but that's your genitals your risking. Also, don't be a bust down. Stick to one having sex with one person. STD's are spread around by having sex with multiple partners because if you don't know the person, you don't know what they have and they more then likely aren't going to tell you.

So do me a favor ladie and gentlemen, be safe!!! Wrap it up before you mess it up!! You don't want to get an STD that could ruin your life forever or possibly even the awesome relationship you are in. Go get tested if you have any feeling that you may have been in contact with such bacteria. I hope I talked some since into all you youngens having sex...have a good day!