I have had many friends through out my 17 almost 18 years of life. I don't know why it took till my 18th year to realize what friends are truly friends. I shouldn't be talking though, some of my old friends are probably saying the same thing about me. How do you know if your friend is truly your friend? Maybe you just have to go through the situation to realize whether they are or not. I know from the beginning, how they act toward me and how much effort they put into the relationship.
There are friends that put everything into it, like me with my big hearted self, and then there are friends that put some effort into it, the ones that say they care but don't show it. There are friends that are just users, whether for a ride or for sex, then there are friends that are friends from the past that you have just lost touch with.
One of my friends birthdays is today and we were going to hangout last night but she had to work until 9 pm and by the time she got off, she wanted to go home and take a shower and then come hangout for a little bit but it was 9 pm and I had to be up for school. I told her to just come over before she went home, it wouldn't take long and then she could go do her other business, well that wasn't good enough, she felt disgusting and needed to shower. She said she had something else to go do real quick and then she would call me and that it would be a minute and then she would call me. I just didn't expect her to come. You know how people get this tone in their voice when you ask them to do something and you can just tell they don't want to and then right as you expect it they come up with an excuse? That's how it was so I just fell asleep with my boyfriend and puppies. I'm use to this by now, with my cousin doing the same thing a week before, I've learned to just ignore it but when they need me next, I won't be there just as they did me.
I do the same thing to people though, I'm a hypocrite, I admit it. Except it's not my fault. I hate telling people no so I tell them yes and then just ignore them the rest of the day like I totally forgot. It's an excuse for me though, I have a huge heart and people know that so they kind of take advantage of it but when I do tell them no, I'm the worst person in the world. I hate to even think of telling people no due to the fact that they will hate me. I'm starting to get the notion in me not to care though cause most of my friends don't do anything for me.
Does anyone else have the same feelings? Any friends that just don't care they just want to use you? Please enlighten me on your stories and the feelings you have towards them, if you need some advice let me know too, like I said I have a big heart, I'm here for those who need to chat. Ta Ta for now ladies and gents!!!
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